I am here sitting in my living room attempting to study for my dosage quiz, with the fireplace warming the place up and a pumpkin spice candle burning, filling my little apartment with the aroma of pumpkin spice….
Am also wrapped in a huge cozy blanket, nibbling on some homemade banana and oatmeal cookies, my favorite music is also playing in the background………yes you guessed it, life is perfect for me at the moment. I love moments like this when I am just enjoying the present, just me and my perfect little apartment. There are so many times I get depressed over missing my family and my life back in Kenya where I was surrounded with people who knew me most of my life, people who cared for me (even though they didn’t think of it that way)………and it brings me down because I keep wishing for these things again. My current life consists of MEETING friends but not really KEEPING most of them, because am either too busy working towards my future(and so are most people my age – either in school a lot or starting new careers and no time for a social life), and friends feel like extra work because people have responsibilities and hanging out has to be planned days in advance (I miss the good old days of texting my buddies to hang out without notice or go on adventures together without planning days in advance..sigh), my co-workers are probably the closest I have to real friends and that makes me sad at times, and thats when I start to live in the past…missing my old life. I understand the circle of life though, at certain stages in life, things shift and life is not always what we thought it would be when we were younger.
Sometimes I try to wrap my little human mind around how wonderful life is or can be if we let it be, we don’t others or need things that others have to make as happy, we only need to take advantage of what we have to make us happy. As the weather gets cooler, all I want is to snuggle up inside all day and read a good book(in my case a nursing textbook ha) or watch back to back episodes of the Mindy project! (don’t pretend you don’t watch too much t.v)
Besides wanting to stay indoors all day every day, I also enjoy hiking in foggy chilly weather and of course photography. It is a good outlet from the normal work days and schools weeks…even though I do enjoy work and school (which you wouldn’t care to hear about haha), it is nice to do the complete opposite as a way to unwind and explore your creativity. I also do have some favorite humans I enjoy doing things with (that is if they are not working insane hours that leave me wondering how they survive…)
Reading through my post, I realize that I may have been way too honest with you all (some of you I’ll be seeing on a daily basis so don’t judge me please haha), am happy to share my thoughts and am certain you can relate to some of this content as well.
I photographed everything in this post with my iPhone, and I am very impressed with how good the iPhone camera is. Am taking advantage of weather changes to grow my photography skills, isn’t this place beautiful? Btw, if you can’t tell yet, I love natural settings more than urban settings, there is something very attractive about un-touched wild growth compared to nice architecture (unless its historic…then thats another story..)